Haven't blogged in days and will prb trickle down to one blog per week in the future...very tired after bloody second orientation and keeping up an enthu face. My legs are aching and my brain is quite drained of any new conv topics, so hopefully other people will take the initiative and ask me questions instead. I MISS MY OLD CG!!! Crap crap crap crap bag. Spend the disco part of orientation with them and had a ball of a time!! Cldn't imagine it with my new class tho, sigh.

So far, they look okay on an overall note. There's a *nice* person who I don't think I'll like and 4 "dao" SAS guys. They looked aloof lah, but I talked to one of them today and he's totally friendly, haha. Maybe the rest won't be so bad. ARGHHHHH. There's like a bunch of really SILENT people in the class who I dunno how they will survive if they dun socialise. ARGHHHHH so fed-up with the whole new beginning...it's so taxing. I hope I make loads of new friends soon!!

Random note: Please ignore and forget previous random note, haha. 10:13 pm

Yay, daddy came back from China safe and sound!! Happy happy happy happy happieeeeeeee and relieved! Always worry when he goes away to some foreign place, but he says he has a very trustworthy China counterpart called "A-Fei" to show him around. I've only seen a picture of this "A-fei", but he is rather shuai, man...haha, won't be telling my father that anytime soon tho :D. I wonder how to put a password on my blog..if anyone knows please tell me.

I saw Max and Halo yesterday too! You know they say absence makes the heart grow fonder? It's so very true...I spent the whole Saturday hugging them. To think I didn't really like them at first. Urm, to clarify things, Max and Halo are DOGS...my dad's dogs. Max= golden ret ; Halo= Siberian Husky..damn cute but get damn dirty. I'll find better pictures of them and post them up next time. Here's one tho, of dad and Halo (when we first got her) :
............Halo alone:

Post more of Max next time. Shit, tmr is drawing near. 3:59 pm

Did you think that was the end???????????

Not when lizard traps come in two per pack.

Mom placed another trap in kitchen and another lizard got caught...you'd think they'd learn to avoid the cardboard by now!! Stupid reptiles..give me more work to do. I have homework, you know! Actually I don't lah, but I have better things to do!!! This time the whole thing is in the trap so it can't move anymore...i felt quite sorry for it so i put 2 rice grains near its head. Then my mom scolded me for trying to keep it alive. WTH!

So bloody annoyed now. 3:56 pm

Ohhhhhh-nooooooooooooo.....what's up with the army gear for monday?? Looks like the stuff the ma'ams told us to bring for Red Cross circuit training...and where in the world do they expect me to find a 1 Litre bottle?! Is there even such a thing??

After some speculation, it was suggested that there would be trek in some wooded area (eg: Labrador Park, Bukit Timah...). That would explain the insect repellent and water bottle. But what abt the 3 pairs of socks!! Aiyah, dun care la, will accept my fate (grudgingly). Hope we don't get muddy.

Today was as boring, and once again, thank God for Fengyi. What would I do without her!!! Went to Chinatown with France, Bern, Wai and Feng to check out the SA uniforms..stupid things were outta stock, ultra translucent and $3 more expensive than from school. The woman manning the shop seriously needs to hire at least 1 employee...I mean, she is so patient and helpful and young lor. It must be the stress that makes her hair so big. Saw Jairus and his pal there too...haha it seems that we're making a private joke out of our failure to get into VJC. Waved to Mr. Chua again today...hope he doesn't think I'm despo or smth. Resolution: will not wave to him for next 3 schooling days. 4:06 pm

I'm both happy and annoyed about going back to SA today.

The Pros: See all your pals again
................: See friendly Mr Chua again (haha, he's so funnie and never fails to wave!!)
................: Loads of fun
................: Learning process begins
................: Eye candy (most applicable to waisze and haydee)

The Cons: See all the bitches/posers/daoers/irritants again
.................: See evil teachers again
.................: Loads of stress
.................: Sleep and wake up at ungodly hours
.................: School is an unconducive place (I'll prob talk more than learn)
.................: Horrid canteen food
.................: 'Modern & chio' environment
.................: Dratted P.E.
.................: Homework, homework and more homework

So far, my orientation group consists of mostly familiar faces (damn damn damn). I never really got along with my og, to the extent that we ignored each other most of the time. Thank God for Fengyi, if not i'd probably die from boredom. Made peace-cum-friends with Jonas and Huihui from the OG, so hopefully, it'll turn out alright. Today was B-O-R-I-N-G...so spent most of the breaks with my lovely CG and realised that I missed them sooo much! We were the perfect class. It's going to be the same for the next few days, i suppose, for the new intake's sake. I hope my new class will be just as great or better than my first CG...sigh! 1:58 pm

I feel so bad abt ponning school now!! You know how sometimes the early mornings can affect you, especially after a whole week of holidaying and sleeping at 3am?? Yeah well, I wasn't thinking straight and when my mom asked if i was going to school, my first thought was "NO WAY!". Ahhhhhaaahhhaaa ( that was sardonic laughter btw). IT'S THE LAST DAY YOU'LL SPENT WITH THE CLASS, YOU STUPID FOOL!!! Argh, apparently it didn't click in the morning, so i spent the day sleeping till 1pm and then I realised what an idiotic mistake i made! Am kicking myself now, Bernie and Cord and France and Samme and Shirrin...so super sorry. See, Cord msged me at 8 plus to ask me why I abandonned her. Then Shirrin msged me also at 8 to ask me "where the hell are you". Then bcos i was still asleep and cldn't reply, she msged me again at 11 to call me a "irritating pig" and say that "i've been looking for you the whole day to give you your cushion". The cushion is some present, i suppose. Then, as one of the two Official Class P.E Ponners, I've let down the other OCPEP (Samme) by not coming to school to pon P.E...sounds a bit stupid here haha. And then there's Bern, who tagged my blog to scold me and make me feel guilty abt not taking pictures and telling her a story today.

Worse still, I didn't spend the last few remaining hours with my class!!! Sobs, I'm awful! Oh anyway, I'm happy now cos I watched Lord of the Rings..OMG OMG OMG...the show rocks and it's the best show in the world!! If you think it's boring or ridiculous, you betta not say it anywhere within earshot of me or you might as well NOT BE ALIVE!!! If you plan to say anything slightly bad abt anything related to LOTR, please do not come near me cos you may not live past your next birthday. THE SHOW ROX THE SHOW ROX THE SHOW ROX THE BOOK ROX THE BOOK ROX THE BOOK ROX THE AUTHOR ROX THE AUTHOR ROX THE AUTHOR ROX THE WHOLE THING ROX THE WHOLE THING ROX THE WHOLE THING ROX!!!!! In case you didn't know, I'm quite besotted with Lord of the Rings. 11:37 pm

Hahahahha...i'm no professional movie critic but Hitch was really lame!! I could almost predict the show: guy sees girl --> love blossoms --> misunderstanding occurs --> guy does something sweet (like confesses undying love) --> Voila! happily ever after. Does the show sound bad after I said all that? Haha, no, don't get me wrong, I thought it was quite good actually! I laughed so hard, and we were still laughing when we emeged from the cinema...haha that Albert guy is such a loser!! Albeit a chubby, semi-adorable one.

Okay, took some really SPASTIC neoprints with gel and wai.. heehee, we'll have some lame memories then! Btw, i think Gel currently has the best job in the world. I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT SHIRLYNN SIM. We were supposed to meet at 12 and she called wai at 12 smth to say that she just woke up but wld be on her way. So we waited till 2 instead of going straight in to watch a movie. Strange thing was, she wasn't picking up her phone and in the end, we finally decided to just go ahead w/o her. When we finally managed to contact her AFTER the movie, guess what happened: After telling wai that she wld be on her way, she went straight back to sleep and didn't wake up till 4!! Hmph, what a girl.

Oh and guess who we saw the bus-stop??? EURGH. All thanks to the number 14 bus that took hours to come, i spotted my "favourit-est" person in the world. EURGH. I even had to wave to her. EURGH.

Haha, had a great day tho..HAPPY BIRTHDAY, WAISZE! ! 7:00 pm

Have you ever been ordered to strip
Before half a dozen barking eyes.
Forcing you against a wall -
ordering you to part your legs and bend over?

Have you ever had a door slammed
Locking you out of the world.
Propelling you into timeless space -
To the emptiness of silence?

Have you ever lain on a wooden bed -
In regulation pyjamas,
And tried to get a bucket to talk -
In all seriousness?

Have you ever begged for blankets
From an eye staring through a hole in the door.
Rubbing at the cold air digging into your flesh -
Biting down on your bottom lip, while mouthing
. "Please, Sir"?

Have you ever heard screams in the middle
. of the night.
Or the sobbings of a stir-crazy prisoner.
Echo over and over again in the darkness -
Threatening to draw you into it's madness?

Have you ever rolled up into a human ball
And prayed for sleep to come?
Have you lain awake for hours
Waiting for morning to mark yet another day of
. being alone?

Have you?

-Robert Walker. 8:48 pm

I finally "spoke" to my elder cousin, Melissa, at abt 1am this morning and I'm so glad I did. It's been amost 3 years since I last saw her as she migrated to Australia, Sydney, right after her O's. We were really close, almost like sisters in my opinion and though we called each other crude names (which i shan't mention here to protect my reputation..haha), we never meant them to hurt. Ah I still miss those days! Her rebellious ways aainst my grandparents made her a character I'll never forget...she loved them but acted as if she didn't care. And she took care of me, listened to me, showed me new perspectives I'd never have seen. I love her so much.

Caught up as much as one could over MSN at such a godforsaken time and I realised she's doing physiotherapy at the Uni of Sydney. In her 1st year after going thru high school there and as usual, was burning the midnight oil to meet a deadline. Ha, somethings don't change!! I love her i love her i miss her i miss her!! ( That sounded so wrong but you know what I mean) :p

That short chat with her sorta made my ambition in life clear. I told her I didn't know what my goal in life was and I was just wandering aimlessly. Being such a great cousin, she gave me consolation and inspiration, thus showing me the light. I want to help people and reach out to them. I know precisely what I want to be now. I hope Shirrin convinces that professor guy to give us the internship..it may be the start of a fulfilling career choice. 7:21 pm

Eww eww, guess what? Eww eww a lizard got snared it that pathetic trap. The prob is my mum forgot to adhere the trap to anything and cos it's so light, the lizard ( which got caught at 9:08pm 16 March 2004) is lugging the trap around. Only the hindlegs and tail got stuck if i'm not wrong so it looked pretty strange... i don't know where it is now cos it's gone into hidding. What a wonderful time I'm having! 10:37 pm

ARGH..so annoying, made plans yet have to cancel. Oh well, my fault la, didn't check with everyone properly. Now poor Waisze has been pang-sehed twice in advanced for her bdae!! Nah, trying to fix it by getting shir and sam and gel...so far shir can make it but can't reach sam and gel yet. *Fingers crossed* Darn, have to tell the first batch of friends that i gotta cancel and they have to rearrange their plans. Feel so lousy about it.

Just went out with Leeling and Shirrin at Great World City and heyhey! I was on time for once! And that stupid prat Shirrin was LATE after telling me off a million times not to be "en retard"...pot calling the kettle black huh? Haha, we had fun strolling around and talking. She seriously needs to go for counselling abt that M****** fellow...she is SUPER besotted! Brings him up every few seconds out of the blue. And bcos the actual purpose of today's outing was to help her search for prezzies for her class, me and Ling-a-ling wracked our brains senseless churning up ideas for her. In the end what did she do to those fabulous plans?!? She said," Haiya, forgeddit lah." Gr. Oh well, on the bright side, we did loads of catching up and laffing..teehee!

Reading an "omnibus" by my favourite funny-book author, P.G Wodehouse. Never fails to crack me up...pity he's not around anymore cuz that means the world is one short of a humour genius and that my funny-book supply will steadily run out. Darnation.

Oh by the way, in my previous post I made an error by calling lizards amphibians. They're actually reptiles, silly me! :D 5:30 pm

Okayy. This is so stupid. I've become a lizard catcher.

My mum is really scared of lizards and i mean REALLY petrified of them. It doesn't matter if they're huge moniter lizards or just plain house geckos..she'll just scream when she sees them. Can't blame her la, everyone has his or her own strange phobias., but this is really too much!!

Recently (okay i mean abt 5 months ago), the lizards came. Maybe it was just one or two, so we didn't care so much. But I suppose if one was a male and the other a female, and they got to know each other, many things can happen within 5 months. The many things were probably baby lizards. So now, every now and then you'll hear my mum go, "Oooo!!" in the kitchen, and you'll know it's probably bcos one of the Gecko family has run out from its hidey-holes to say hi. It's quite funny really.

Until YESTERDAY, when my mother went to the DIY shop and bought a gecko trap. It's actually just a piece of flimsy cardboard with loads of glue on it. The guy says it's pre-baited, so i suppose it must have some insect pheromones or the likes on it...So what happens is that the lizard(s) get attracted and comes to investigate and when it steps on the glue, it gets stuck. It is so STUPID and so CRUEL..do mean to say that the thing is going to be stuck there for the rest of its life?? It will probably die of either starvation or ripping of its skin..both very cruel methods of death i find!! Anyway, the trap was set YESTERDAY and i only found out THIS MORNING, when my mum conveniently told me that if there shld be a lizard in the trap, I would be the one to dispose of it. What the hell?! It's not that I mind touching the lizard ( cos one crawled up my leg in pri school already..it's very cold), but the fact that I have to watch it SUFFER. Please la, show some humanity to the amphibian.

Lucky for me, there's been nothing in the trap except glue and air. I still can't believe how I'm spending the first few days of my holidays...catching lizards. What an amazing, fun thing to do! OKay I've been slacking quite a lot too, playing the scores Wai Sze lent me. So nice of her! Going out tmr with 2 buddies and may plan a little smth for friday. Still in a dilema abt the PlanetShakers church concert Cordelia's inviting me to....hmmm. 3:22 pm

Yeps, it's obvious that beauty is in the eye of the beholder.. One man's peach, another man's poison. I keep forgetting that la! People point out the "hottest" guys and girls to me in school and I'm like huh?? really meh? Okay, well i'm not the only one cos dear Samme thinks so too. And that person I dislike in class, apparently many people think he/she is wonderful (can't use too many descriptives here, or else it'll become obvious).

Watched a basketball match between SAJC and a team all the way from Phillipines...OH MAN!! I love basketball now...the way they move, the way they play..they can hang in mid-air for a split second and scoot across the court like nobody's business! Number 7,8 and 14 from the Phillipines team, YOU ROCK!! You'd think b-ballers have to be really tall to be good, but noooo...the undisputed star players of the match were the shorties. I mean, compared to the giants of the court they were, but they're much taller than me. Wow, we were so addicted we just cldn't bring ourselves to leave for choir practice. Unfortunately, SAJC lost the match by 9 points...not so bad considering how good the foreign team was. Still there was a good sense of camaraderie throughout the game, so no harm done. I'm sure the experience was worth more than winning a match. It was for me anyway, my first live bball game!! Oh yeah and there was weezie's friend going nuts over one of the players...question marks all over the place...i guess it all boils down to perspective.

Ah but there was a beautiful song that EVERYONE agreed on...Kyrie, but only the solo part. Wowie, it's so...SIGH...if you get my drift. "Christe e leison...." If only choir sang such nice songs in public, we prb wldn't humiliate ourselves so much haha. 5:36 pm

I seriously think there are a lot of things going on behind my back. What bugs me the most are not the stories about me, but about the people around me that I care for. Okay, the ones about me HATING a particular classmate is totally over exaggerated. True- I don't like him/her, but I don't hate the person. Hate is really too strong a word. Hate is reserved for someone in SA choir. I have a feeling the over-exaggerated story got round to the unfortunate soul and now, so-and-so is not talking to me...not that I care, but it makes things VERY awkward. I didn't realise that so many people found out abt my distaste for the person until today..and then it occured to me why he/she has been avoiding any eye contact whatsoever with me. Oh well, I'm not going to clear things up. I'm too proud for that.

Now the one that I'm really fed-up over: IS THERE SOMETHING GOING ON BETWEEN 2 OF MY FRIENDS? It's perfectly fine if they want to couple-up or something but there is something ELSE that's not right. It's not just me that's noticed so I know I'm not paranoid...they're not happy about something (are they??) and both of them are distancing themselves. (Are they??) WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG. I know they've talked about it but the question is: Did they solve it?? (what is it??) It's spells trouble if they argue or if things become estranged...what will it do to the the rest of us friends? Notice the many brackets...we can't even place whats going on, thus the many queries. It quite saddens me to think that something is troubling them yet they won't confide in us. Nevertheless, it's solely up to them.

I miss Su sorely. The fun times we had!! I feel bad for ponning econs tutorial today, cos only 6 pple went...Mr Chua was apparently very disappointed in us and he's such a nice person. Darn, must work harder!! 6:38 pm

I sighed a lot today...the first day of back-to-schooling. I sighed bcos literally half my class are leaving. I sighed because I bonded really well with them today. I sighed bcos I knew I would miss them. I sighed because I couldn't get into VJ. SIGH.

I know there are others who got worse results than me and I should be grateful for my results, but looking at all the single-digiters around me, I can't help but feel a pang of jealousy. I mean, where did I go wrong? I'm seriously unhappy with where I am now, after attending a single lecture at RJC. There, I understood the lecturer PERFECTLY when she was talking about a completely new topic. Here, I'm bored senseless by the lecturer's ongoing drone that sounds greek. The teachers can really make a big difference in a student's learning process, you know. I wonder if I'm going to improve at all if the current school I am in is so un-conducive! I think I'm being mean and that's probably going over-board, but hey, it's just my current opinion.

On a lighter note, I played chess with Brandon (AGAIN) and I won (AGAIN)... yay!! Three times, man..you gotta practice harder! Never mind eldest bro, I know you were letting me win, right right?? :P Have yet to play with Jairus and Jonathan..shall beat them hands-down too. *ego* Went swimming today instead of going with the waterpolo team..free-and-easy...much more relaxing. Had fun and I'm contented for now...SIGH. 8:21 pm

Man!! The school rox!!! It's like a castle, a high-tech office and modern condo all rolled into one. I wanna be there but OBVIOUSLY, my score won't let me thru. Damn damn damn. Saw my amazing french buddy Yamini the Mudskipper and dearest Wantian...was so good to see them and had a great laugh. I miss them!! Then for our gracious hosts: Sam Yap and Jasmine...wonderful reunion huh? If you read this, Sammie, I MISS YOU TONS! Shld be honoured, you. Wen with Waisze and Glenn..was super fun. Shall rot at home tmr, feeling bad cos I turned down LeeLing and Shirrin to crash JJC & missing Isaac's birthday. Sorry, you guys.. tired lah. Just chatted with a long-lost friend on MSN...so happy he tagged my blog..can't believe he remembered..thanks Xun. This is becoming a dedication post but WTH...all my friends out there: I love you all!

Special dedi to Suhendra aka Suzy/Fairy: Hey guy, will miss you crazily. Can't believe you're leaving me to go to Seattle.. I mean, come on, how can Seattle compare with me?! Haha, wadeva the case, I'll miss you loads..thanks for all the fun times in 05S63. Stop playing carum and TRY to beat me in chess k? You rock..all the best. 11:51 pm

Wow, it's kinda numbing, after realising so many people got single digit results. Sobs! May not be able to stay in SA if this goes on!! Anyway, went for choir today and saw how empty the school was without all the J1s. Felt like my insides, hollow.

I have a favourite song now : Kelly Clarkson's "since you've been gone". Trying to find a mp3 download. I think she has an amazing voice. Oh and fav band: Il Divo. Their voices combined make me melt, with their "Regressa Mi". There's a bee in my living room so, i've locked myself in the study and blogging...can't believe my luck. 7:48 pm

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